What is worse than meeting your ex-boyfriend ? Meeting his new girlfriend !

The story of a broken girl 




I didn't expect this at all. Even in my worse nightmares, I couldn't imagine that I could meet her at my university, the place I belong, where I feel protected, like home (ok right now I'm exagerating).


But nowhere is safe, you can be hurt at any time. And when I saw her, I remembered all those nights where I couldn't sleep because I felt so sad, how my heart was broken when I learnt they were dating, because it meant I was right from the beginning. Because he left me because of her. Even if he didn't realized it yet when we broke up.


Because I know why she's just better than me at many points. Because she seems so self confident and I'm not. Because she's exactly the type of girl he wanted, he needed. And he used to think I was this type of girl. But then realized that I was weak, needed so much attention, that I didn't trust in his feelings. So he broke up. And then he started to date with this girl.


I feel bad because I know that it's been two years since whe're no longer together. But I can't help it. This is just stronger than me...


When you were truly in love, and really really hurt because of the break up, it still hurts even after two years. Maybe it will hurt forever... 


Thank god I was really busy today despite the conferences, and surprisingly being surrounded by the people in the lab makes me feel better.


I have to say that two years later, I also realized my own qualities, and I don't want to denigrate myself. Because the fact that he didn't want to be with me anymore doesn't mean I'm not a good person for someone else (my actual boyfriend though).


Maybe I will think about her tonight, maybe tomorrow. But then I'll forget. I absolutely sure I will feel better and forget. Since the day I'll meet her again.


See you,


CloHotPants